Boarderlining Conniption

Can we talk about how I had a good day?
Because I did.
First I woke up, in a bad mood because I knew I needed to go register for school.
I dont want to go back, at all Then I got cute with my friend.
I went to register, got all the classes I want, whooo hooo
Then I went to the mall and went shopping!
then i went to church, which was good, but not as good as it usually was, weird huh?
then I went to tennis, well I go and watch and talk to people.
X (who we shall now call snookums, thats surrogate) was there.
nice to see him.
then I went home, was feeling ill.
but now im at my bestest's house, just chilling.


yay for good days

thank you god for my good day, it was much needed
amen

when does staying together, married, for the sake of the children actually start to hinder the children?

Alright, so the other day I found a lump in one of my breasts. So I’m going to the doctor today, prayers please! My grandma is a nurse, she looked at it and said it was abnormal and I wold probably need it removed.

Prayers that nothing will be there or that God will give me the comfort that He is in control.

Dear Lord,
You know I am scared right now, but please give me a comfort. I know that this body is not my own and that you love me and will never give me something I cannot handle. But everything, I cannot handle without you, so please make yourself apparent to me today.

Thank you Lord for your love that surpasses understanding.

Amen.

1Peter 5:7
Casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.

Anyway, life is pretty good. Going to see my grandma for dinner tonight, just me and her.  My best friend........pookie...lol.....her boyfriend broke up with her last night, I went to comfort her, but I think it will be okay.

 The end.

Things were quite stressful this weekend.
I went on a getaway weekend with some friends. Mainly X, a friend leaving for boot camp, and a girl basically my best friend right now, helped me through so much, we shall call……&hell ip;…..Linda. Ha, Linda. Okay, so anyways, someone told me I should give X a name. I cannot think of one yet, let me think on it some more.

Anyway, it was fun but I was reminded over and over again about things at home. My mom and I were fighting, she seemed bitter that I was getting closer with God rather than closer to her, and she acted like she didn’t even want me being friends with X.

Anyway, in the end, I got home and called her and talked o her about everything, I explained how X and I just want to be friends, nothing more so she said she is more at ease about us hanging out. And I explained to her about God.

That was last night, so we shall see how things will go.
Philippians 4: 6

Alright so another thing about me time :-)

There is this boy (who from this point on we shall call X)
X goes to a youth group that does stuff with my youth group all of the time
(ps, im done pretending i care abotu my age, im 16, but i defanitally don't act it)
Anyway, X is < 2 years older than me. I met X when I needed a ride up to a beach house that both our youth groups were going to,
he drove my cousin and I. At the time I had a boyfriend,
he had a girlfriend. I didn't think anything of it, never talked to him after that.
Untilllllll, about a month ago we met again at a 4 day christian concert in Washington called Creation.
We hung out alot, I grew close with him and his sister who we will call Jess. Then on the way home I rode with them in X's car.
Jess was asleep in the back, and short story, X admitted he had interest in me, I said I did as well, because I did....or do....or whatever.
But then when I got home, my parents totally didn't like that there was a new boy right after my last relationship, I understood their concern.
I explained to X that nothing can happen between us for at least a couple of months, and even then it will be courting, he is totally okay with that.
But then God convicted me of something, I always give people the benefit of the doubt, I don't knwo X"s character,
I don't know whether he would lie to me or not, I need to gaurd my heart, not throw it at every person who promises to protect it.
So I told X all that and that I do like him, but I need to not talk abotu that, we just need to be friends first. He agreed. So yeah, thats that. :-)
This is a song, I LOVE.

FREE SHAWN MCDONALD
I feel like the weight of the world is all -
crashing down on me And some how I just don’t believe this how -
it is suppose to be And all this expectation on -
the way I’m suppose to live Becomes my minds distraction -
with nothing left to give You said your burden is light and your load -
is no more You said your ways are right and in you I will soar

I want to be free - free to dance and free to sing Free to live and learn and free Oh, free to be me

I feel like my heart is being beat -
down into the ground In you I’m longing for some peace -
to be found I know the heaviness that’s -
making me cold Is stealing my youthful soul and -
making me old You said your burden is light and your load -
is no more You said your ways are right and in you I will soar

I want to be free - free to dance and free to sing Free to live and learn and free Oh, free to be me

because i do. i knwo it is a sin. but sometimes, like when they wake me up by yelling and running down my hallway, slamming doors, i just cannot help myself. :-) granted it is almost 10 am. but still.........do you like being woken up because someone is yelling? i suppose now here is another area i need to explain. i like with 10 others in a 5 bedroom house. my parents, my 2 sister(ages 10,12), my 2 grandparents, my moms friend and her 3 kids(ages 5,7,9). then i babysit a 5 year old little boy and my cousins come over everyday (aes 8 and 11). The other people besides my family live here because they cannot live at their home. I am going to go crazy. I am going to do it. Lol. Lord, give me strength to resist the urge to hit the children, and give me the patience to deal witht hem every day. Amen.

poems! i love them, they help me express what i cannot.

Believe in me, trust me, I plea just be able to see me
For if I believe in you
would you be the one to hold my secrets
and never let them free?
For if I trusted you
would you meet me half way
in the pouring rain
to stop me from running away?
For if I fall behind in this race named life
would you tell me I can do it
and give me the courage to just keep going?
I just want to know how to trust
how to feel again
just tell me please, can you
Believe in me, trust me?
 I plea just be able to see me

    & nbsp; hey,
my name is lady pulse. not really, but thats what you can call me.
I am a very happy person, need somewhere to tell a million strangers the soap opera i call life.
So about a month ago I broke up with the guy I thought I was going to marry......we had plans and everything.

So I suppose that will be my first post, THAT story.

I met this guy when I was young, we never were friends. I was much younger than him, then we grew up, I grew up, he found interest in me. Then we started dating and fell in love. We were best friends, but then he started deciding he should be my only friend that is a guy. Then he didn't want me hanging out with other people if he wasn't around.

One thing you need to know about me, I am a christian and very proud of my faith.

Then he decided he didn't beleive in god anymore and didn't want me going to church anymore.
So I told him I didn't want to be with him anymore.
It was very very messy.

So, that was that.