Boarderlining Conniption

so when i was in middleschool my dad used to drive me to school everyday
he used to cross over the other lane and stop on the side parking and let me out.
thats how i learned it.
today when taking my sister to school, i did that.
i saw a sherrif there, so i obviously didnt think it was illegal.
supposadly, even though you arent in traffic, its still driving on the other side of the road. and a 250 dollar ticket. nice huh? he didnt even ask me why i did it, or anything, just asked for my license and gave me the ticket. nothing else except, show up at court if you dont like it.

im trying to stay positive.

Sorry I haven’t written in a long time, I have been soooo busy with school.

I have been reading this book called “Captivating” for quite some time now. It’s glorious. Makes me so proud to be a woman in God’s family.  I want to do like a girl’s bible study type thing on it. As soon as I finish the book and go by the journal and read through it, I am going to bring it up to my Grandpa.

I was very blessed on Sunday, my dad spoke at SWAT(youth group).
I don’t really get a chance to be around my dad much, especially at church, it was cool.

Life has been good. I think. J School is really stressful, I feel constantly busy. There is always something to do.  And sometimes I am lonely at school. It’s weird. I’m definitely not used to being somewhere where I really don’t have many friends.  But Ashley and I have been getting very close, which is nice, I missed her.  And, the loneliness at school turns me to God.

Stuff at home has kind of been stressful. Stuff there, prayers please.

Ummmm, homecoming is coming up. I’m taking Mr.X, it’ll be fun, but we still need to find people to go to dinner with.

That’s all for now. Gotta go do finishing touches on Cyrano project blah.

hello all!
so. alot has happened to me lately.
basically lately i feel pretty lonely at school. i have one friend.
it's kinda sad.
but other school stuff is going well, getting college stuff worked out, PSATs on oct. 18th, lotsa prayers there please.
speaking of prayers, been slacking. i need decipline! **god, please lord help me rememebr to read my bible, give me a strong conviction lord to be in constant prayer for you**
anyway, homecoming!!! im basically a tag a long, my friend and a bunch of her friends and dates are going, im tagging. so im bringing Mr.X, yes, i got permission to ask him from my mommy and daddy ;-) and he said yes :-).
we shall see how that goes.
tomorrow i have to do a huge thing on a french play for school, all day at the public library! whoo hoo.
**Lord, please help me keep my head, keep focus on you, not on Mr.X. Help me not rush your timing Lord, all in your timing.**
my trip to see my friend at the college i want to go to got cancelled, sad day. but we are trying for th eweekend before/of halloween. hopefully.

its so weird, tlaking about going to college. i feel old. :-)

UMMM, super tired, its late, long day. g'night!

today was a confusing day.
I found out one of my friends is doing drugs, gay huh? no more friends with her.
She has been lieing to me, saying she doesnt do it. Gosh. Im so sick of school

But then I went to a fountain and played in it, in the rain. it was awesome.
ANd then went to bible church.
Then to dinner with X and his sister and my sister, very fun.

So I own my own business, distrubting an amazing product called monavie. you can check it out at monavie.com if you want. anyways, i got into the business after it halped me with tons of health problems that used to send me to the doctor 3 times a week, now im at like 2 a month? anyway, i might have a new personal that will generate more money. all that money is now going to college, prayers PLEASE.

good day, sorta.
OH, and i got a free homcoming dress, a friend of mine. thank the lord for that, i am broke, it fits PERFECT.  Now if we can get my dad to let me take X in a weeka nd a half......

twentytwo seconds until this all ends.
until you finally understand and
hear the messege my heart sends.

twentytwo seconds till i finally break
can;t take this anymore, the waiting
i don't have the patience, the time it'll take.

twentytwo seconds, not much time at all
maybe god took my patience
So I will allow myself to fall.

i just told my dad about college.

he gave me this horrified look and said, "kate, do you realize that NAME OF SCHOOL HERE is the most expensive school in the state?"

alright. well, thanks for the encouragement. thanks for saying "im glad you chose college instead of beauty school" (he had told me in the past he didnt really approve of beauty school)
thansk for asking me if i had already been looking into scholarships...which i have. thanks for asking what i even want to do (elementary special education, ultimatly i want to work with a preschool here for the autistic)
thanks for saying "god will work it out"

thanks.

(Sept. 15) - In the picturesque northwest corner of Montana only 30 miles from Glacier National Park, signs have begun to appear on windows in the city of Kalispell that proclaim "No Hate Here."


What's the fuss all about?

At first, it seems difficult to believe that the focus of the campaign is two 14-year-old twin girls.

Then it becomes clear.

The two teens are those spokeskids for white separatists, Lamb and Lynx Gaede, who vaulted to international attention after they appeared on ABC's "Primetime" last year.

The girls, their mother, April, and stepfather Mark Harrington recently moved to Montana from Bakersfield, Calif., after April told "Primetime" that Bakersfield was "not white enough." Now Kalispell has put the family on notice, "Not in my backyard."

Last week a group of neighbors printed information sheets about the family and distributed them door to door. 


"This letter is not written as a means to harass the family or to begin a witch hunt," the flier said. "We wish the family no harm. Our goal is to peacefully communicate that this kind of hate and ignorance will not be accepted here in our neighborhood where we live and raise our families."

Lamb and Lynx created the band Prussian Blue to communicate their white separatist views musically. The song "Sacrifice" praises Nazi leader Rudolph Hess, Adolph Hitler's deputy. The two have modeled T-shirts featuring Hitler smiley faces. They mostly appear at rallies for white nationalist causes and maintain a Web site with links to other white separatist organizations.

"The music that Prussian Blue performs is intended for white people," says the Web site. "They hope to help fellow whites come to understand that love for one's race is a beautiful gift that we should celebrate."

Rebecca Kushner-Metteer, one of the people who handed out the fliers, says the teens and their parents moved into her south Kalispell neighborhood a couple of weeks ago. At first, no one paid much attention until another neighbor showed a rerun of the "Primetime" broadcast. They then recognized their new neighbors.

Now Kushner-Metteer and other families say they have received threats.



"We're very concerned about our safety," says Kushner-Metteer.

Postings by members of Stormfront.org and Libertyforum.com, which are community sites linked to the Prussian Blue site, have included addresses and phone numbers of those involved in passing out the fliers. A photograph of a mother and her daughter that was published by the Daily Inter Lake as they distributed the fliers can also be found on the sites.

Kalispell Police Chief Frank Garner says all the threats have come from outside the region but are being investigated. He also says none contained death threats.

In the "Primetime" interview, Lynx who was 13 at the time, says she and her sister were "proud of being white."

"We want our people to stay white," she says. "We don't want to just be, you know, a big muddle. We just want to preserve our race."


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The Gaedes apparently want to be left alone. They have refused to answer their door or telephone.

However, the Kalispell Police Department has heard from the family. The police say they received a complaint that the family was being "harassed" by the neighbors posting the fliers.

In an irony not lost on many in the community, the officers had to explain that the neighbors' free speech rights made the fliers perfectly legal.

Just as legal as the free speech rights afforded Lynx and Lamb Gaede.

Although a date has yet to be set, the 1,400-member Montana Human Rights Network is planning a rally in Kalispell. Seems all area residents are now exercising their free speech rights in northwest Montana.

this is so sad. you just wonder what these little girls were taught as young kids.

thoughts anyone?

Hey all, sorry for not writing in a long time.
I have been super busy and stressed.
So, I had my appt today, all good news :-)
They aren't worried about it, the surgeon said I need to get it checked by a doctor once a month and if it gets any bigger I need surgery, but hey, they aren't worried. AMAZING!
Yesterday I went to my friend's college and saw who in concert? SHAWN MCDONALD!

It was amazing.
OH MAN. And for forever I was planning on going to beauty school and all of a sudden God told me, nope. This was scary, I have had this plan for about 6 years...........BUT THEN, when I was at this college, God said "here" and now I feel completly right with going there. I have alot of work to do, because I need different credits then I thought I was going to need and now I have to take SATS. I have been looking at scholarships and stuff now. It's amazing. I'm way excited.

I lvoe life right now. Even though it is super stressful.

Mr. X is well :-)

and by the way

what the heck is boarderline cancer? either its cancer or it isn't
THAT is on my hand.

i hate imageshack. it didnt show you gusy that picture. its really cute too, dangit.
oh well, im not in the mood to put in on photobucket. lol
school is crazy.
I like it, sometimes. Other times I hate it.
I went to the doctor, i have a wart thing on my had that supposadly is boarderlining cancerous. great huh? I just got cancer all around. So I have to put on some acid stuff. I dunno.
My appt for my breast cancer test is on monday, wish me luck, prayers, knock on wood, all that fun stuff.
Last night was a football game and dance, it was way fun.
I saw an old boyfriend. It was funny because I totally dont ever want to be with him again, but everytime i see him i cant help but think of how cute we are together. We are, even my friends admit that we are the cutest thing to walk this earth, whether we can stand eachother or not. I agree. Not that we cannot stand eachother. lol. we can. In fact we are friends, kind of, he goes to a different school now.

I need to dye my hair soooo bad, roots galore.

well the first day of school was.........interesting.
:-)
I left school last semester becaus eof being really sick, so I came back and I guess people didn't knwo I was coming backa dn had all these questions, it was annoying after a while.  My schedule is pretty nice, only one class I am questioning. Only becaus eit is sooooo big and there are alot of annoying people in there :-)

anyway, i went to my frined house the other day, quite nice, i missed her. here is a picture:;http://img458.imageshack.us/i...; border="0" alt="Image Hosted by ImageShack.us" /></a>" border="0" /

so I went to this website and they had me upload my picture and then they would tell you what celebrities you most look like, well here are my results:

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so, yay, im an asian man, lol.
Anyway life is good, I g to school tomorrow (yuck) BUT, I have two theatre classes this year. And very good teachers. :-)

A couple people I am close to have told me that I need to be with a friend of mine. This friend of mine is a very good person indeed, but I have no romantic feelings towards him.

These are my conditions for a relationship :
I want a man of God, someone to be the spiritual leader
I want a good and kind person, striving to be all they can. That just reminded me of the Army commercial. Lol
And I want someone who I get what I call “good shivers” for.

Good shivers are just the feeling part of the relationship, something that is nothing to base a relationship on, but all part of it. I know in the future and as the relationship grows, good feelings will pass and in place of it will be a chosen love, but there will always be times of romance when those good shivers resurface. PS, good shivers are not being physically attracted or aroused with someone.

If you are a Christian woman, I highly recommend reading the book “captivating” by john and stasi eldredge, It is a Christian view on how society and the Christian church has made a woman believe that she should compromise her desires that the Lord has given her due to duty and obligations.

Right now I am in the process of reading this book and it has made me even more confident in the decision I have that I will not compromise. I have done so in the past, I have compromised at least one of those three things in every relationship I have been in; I refuse to do it again.

I have been old that it is just the immaturity of my flesh that wants the “good shivers”. Love is a choice, I know this, but I think everything plays a part. People tell me I am stupid to pass up an otherwise perfect guy just because of no good shivers. This is my view: I will not settle. If I cannot find a guy who matches all three things, I don’t want a relationship. I believe God will bring me the person He wants me to be with. God placed this desire in my heart for a reason. Letting go of that will just make me bitter towards the man. Also, if good shivers are not part of being in love, or the beginning, or kindling of it……I don’t know if I want to be in love. I have God; I’m very in love with him. He gives me good shivers at time. That is all I really need. No having those good shivers would contradict the love I want.

I believe this whole world was made for romance, the rivers, the meadows and beaches, flowers, music and a kiss. But the world has a way of forgetting all of that.

So I am excited for God to show me someone he wants me to be with that has my 3.

bible verse for the day:
now this is eternal life:
that they may know you the only true God.
John 17:3

You once said you wanted to get to know me.

Maybe this was true.

But why everytime I open up, to my core?

I feel it was the wrong thing to do.

I seem to feel condemned

Each time I speak

I feel a slap of rejection

I’m turning the other cheeck

You want the real me

But then you push it away

Can you even handle the real me?

Deal with it, it’s here to stay

I refuse to change

God has changed me

I like who I am becoming

To who He wants  me to be.

Which is all that matters

I’m sorry you don’t care to know

One of your greatest works.

But no matter what, in God I will grow.