whooop.
thank you you for reminding me to do a soon post whisper ;-)
i have been tired and sick......still, blah.
i got a gym membership and been wokring out, i feel good about it.
im way excited for christmas! so so excited. finally finished my shopping about 5 days ago, 2 days after i started.
i have been a bit stressed about some things at school. im so tired of people judging me for my veiws. i am sick of people getting on my case because i don't believe in abortion, or gay marraige.......shoving their ideas down my throat. i accept that you have different veiws, leave it behind, can't you? my veiw s are not going to change just because someone yells theirs at me.
new blog
life is funny huh?
how can you be incredably close with someone.
And look back on those times,
under a year later,
and realize nothing is the same.
you never talk, maybe once a week.
and even then it's this akward talk.
ya know? like you feel obligated.
but you dont want to feel obligated.
you want the old times.
you want to be able to have the conversations....
the old ones.
this girl in one of my classes and i were talkng about it today. i am so excited for next year. it isn't graduation i'm excited for, well i am, but that still seems way far off, i'm way too young to graduate. its the fact that the hardest year of highschool, junior year will be over, i will have all elective classes except like 2.......everything will start falling into place, instead of me trying to figure out where i am supposed to fit in, being 16 is so weird, it's possibly the worst age i have ever been. i don't knwo what i am supposed to be.
i have people telling me i need to be more, more responsible, do more, get a job, help out, buy your own things, but still find time to pass your classes. i have people telling me i need to mature, to grow up, that graduation is soon and i need to start preparing for my future, for growing up. but i feel like all this preparing is making me grow up sooner than i'm supposed to.
then i have another side, telling me i am trying to grow up too fast, that i still need to have a bed time. i think that if i am old enough to decide what i want to do with the rest of my life, i can tell when im starting to feel tired. i'm not feeling rebellious against my parents, at all. i'm just trying to find a balance, i'm getting mixed signals from everyone, one side telling me one thing, another telling me something different, some people even going both ways and tellign me both things....at the same time! I sure hope that next year i will have found that balance, i figure i got a year to figure it out.
anyway, i hope that everyone can keep me in their prayers for contentment.
update on me:
i have been pretty good, school has been stressful (thanks x for listening to my complaining everyday
), i'm only worried about one of my classes: global realities, its a semester class, and with the semester soon coming to an end, i'm trying to get all the extra credit under my belt as possible. i don't understand how with a class i like so much, and the fact that it's not like i don't do my homework, how i can get a bad grade. oh well. anyway.....
yellowboat is over, thank goodness. it was fun i suppose, but i got tired of that show quite quickly, i am really exicted for the next three projects coming up: act one festival, regionals, and the musical!
love everyone.
yay life
whooo hooo
life is good, eternal life is better, life is good, eternal life is better.
i had a good day, felt good, just a headache, btw, i LOVE oprah.
im so hungry, but its good.
yay life.
love everyone